Beating Myself Up

I have spent a lot of time in my life lately beating myself up, due to a situation I don't want to accept. I don't know what to do about it. It's frustrating. And my age got thrown into my face this morning. Awesome. Just because I am 35 doesn't mean I can't fall for someone I like. The whole situation is FUBAR. I have been trying to remove myself from the whole situation, and its not happening.

On top of it, I am having to channel my inner bitch lately. It's not going well.

And so it begins

Welcome to a new blog. I stopped blogging for quite a while, mainly because where I thought of it as venting and showing my feelings, or chatting about my day, some people took offense. Usually family, but some friends too. It got to the point where I was being asked to delete part of what I said, or remove a name. So, I stopped. I miss it. This is my best writing, whether it be me venting, or me being creative.

I haven't been writing well at all lately. I tend to deny my feelings, and then get writers block. Plus, every time I find a new place to write, people find it. And complain. So here we are.

For the first time in a long time, I have been trying to write, and it has not been going well. I am starting an LGBTQ magazine for my local area, and NOTHING I am writing is coming out in my voice. Not good. So, here we are. I am hoping that if I can start writing regularly again, whatever I want, with no pressure, I can get back to my voice.

Well, it's late and I have a party I am throwing tomorrow. I probably won't sleep but I should at least attempt it. :) Welcome to my life.